Dear Dr. C. Leung,
As you are aware, I am always very honest with you about my health and issues in relation to my health for the most part. I do my best to keep communication open between us as I feel that is extremely important to ensure we have the best doctor/patient relationship between us. I know in the past things were not always stable between us due to past behaviours of mine, but as that was nearly ten years ago, I am coming to wonder if you are ever going to loosen the leash and let me free.
I do realize when I was in my late teen’s/early twenties, I screwed up by stopping my psychiatric medications from time to time and relying on OTC medications such as Gravol and Benadryl for a numbing effect. Yes, there was a part of me that was indeed addicted, but that is no longer the case, why? Gravol and Benadryl have been abused so frequently their numbing effect is useless now. That phase in my life of exploring with OTC (Over-the-Counter) medications and marijuana are long over. If I am addicted to anything that would be food.
I know you are trying to protect me from any potential further addiction, but that last phase was when I was eighteen and I am now twenty-eight, a whole ten years later. Don’t you think it is time to give me some trust and let go of the leash just a little bit? When I saw you the other day in regards to my leg and when people tell you bone pain is the worst pain and all you gave me was Naproxen, did you seriously think that was going to help me?
Yes, I saw Dr. Lim and was given a prescription for Tylenol-3 and it has helped, where I feel no pain. I did not want to have to go behind your back to get something stronger for pain, but I was honest with Dr. Lim about my history and he was not concerned. I still from time to time believe my health issues are truly too much for you to handle. I know I deal with a lot of issues and have to see you often, that is just my reality. However, in my eyes when you walk in the door, you look like, “Not her again!”
So you really need to think, can you handle me, or is it time to pass me on to another GP in the practice or another GP elsewhere. Time for the honest truth.
Katiejane E. Morgan