My Life With a Biological Mother

At 30 weeks gestation it was announced that the fetus in my biological mother’s womb had a brain disorder known as Hydrocephalus. With my biological mother being only 26 at this point of her pregnancy, there were a couple of option left, to follow through with a late term abortion, to place the infant if she were to survive into foster care and hope they would find her a good home to be loved and cared for, or to attempt to rise this baby girl themselves. At this point  my biological parents who were 19 and 25 at the time went as far to get married before the baby was born. Now they were married with no intention of keeping the baby girl that was about to be born.

30 weeks gestation had arrived and to save my life to the best of their ability Neurosurgeons operated to placed a shunt in my brain that would help the spinal fluid keep a continuous flow through my head and body without damaging my brain any further. My biological parents still at the time were given grim news to my progress in life, that I would never walk, talk, hear or see. I know how any parent that is beyond devastating to hear, but to simply give up on your infant in the hospital, not even taking one photo of her, not even giving her a first name, to me it feel like they never gave a crap about me from the moment I was conceived. To me in my eyes it seems that to you I am just a huge fucked up mistake. That you wish you never met me, that I will never measure up to be the biological daughter that you were looking for.

I will just be that fucked up mental retarded that was spoiled beyond belief by the Morgan’s, who will never make anything in terms of being an adult. That by your standards my parents have never been You have done nothing but put my parents down, that they never met up to your standards of living when it came to rising their daughter, even though you referred to me as your daughter. You loss that right when you signed the papers 28 years ago. Sorry, I was the mistake of your life.

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Author: Katiejane

I am 28 years old, from Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada. I was adopted at the age of two due to being born premature with a brain condition unknown as Hydrocephalus. Today, I continue to battle both physical and mental health issues, but in my spare time I blog about my journey in life for others to read. All you can do is take life one day at a time. Nothing more, nothing less.

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