Love You For Always…

“Love you for always, love you forever, as long as your my bestie, my bestie you’ll be.” – Katiejane Morgan

As we have known each other for many years now, I would say nearly ten years. Sure, we have had our ups and downs due to the fact that we both suffer from various though similar mental health conditions. We of course at times butt heads, but who doesn’t. Although we have our moments when we have to say Good-Bye, it is never forever, only momentary, or for a few months to stay true to our mental health, a healthy thing to do.

I will always love you, grandiose ways and ideas, your unconditional love and support even from a distance. I love  you Janice!

Besties forever! ❤


Sisters: Polar Opposites

When I entered this world, I came into a family with two older sister, one who was 15 at the time of my birth and one who was twenty-three. Both were the light of my world regardless of our age differences, they did everything with me and made my world go round. As I grew older, I would have sleepovers at their homes, we would stay up late and watch movies, most of the time I fell asleep early, but we still all had a blast. We were sisters.

After my oldest sister got married, for a second time and finally settled down and had her first child, she would allow me to look after her, it was the time of my life watching my toddler niece grow up. Then my oldest sister and her current husband decided to move to the opposite side of town and hire a nanny, taking me out of the job as their babysitter. Although, I am close, well was with my niece, my nephew and I never bonded.

However, when I look at things, it was almost as if there were other reasons my sister did not want me watching her kids, perhaps related to my mental illnesses and so forth. After my sister sent me that e-mail bashing me in regards to my mental health and physical, forever our relationship would change and never be the same.

Then I have my middle sister, who too when through a bashing by our oldest sister, details I will keep private as they are not my details to share. Yet, for our oldest sister to go on a rampage out of the blue and attack both her younger sisters  and so far any attempt on our behalf to improve things has lead nowhere. So it is sad to know that one day when my parents are not here, my family will be going its’ own way all because of one person’s actions.

I refuse to be bitter or naive over a situation I did not create, my oldest sister has only herself to blame.  Then I have my middle older sister, who has always been there for me, we can fighting and make-up in a moment’s notice.

She has always been there for me regardless how busy or stressed she might be.


Osteomyelitis Return After Only Two Days?!?!?

My Infectious Disease doctor, Dr. Richard Lester, just on June 20th had released me from the program as my leg was going a wonderful job and looking great. That Monday I was taken off all oral and antibiotics via PICC Line for the first time since April 2nd. I thought to myself, I was finally going to be getting some life back. As I was no longer going to need to go to Wound Care everyday, but rather just twice a week Thursday following that Monday was my first appointment. Sadly, the nurse on duty was already concerned about the infection returning due to the temperature in my leg and the redness moving up my left leg. So I got a hold on the pharmacist at Vancouver General Hospital that works along side my doctor and told her what was going on and she recommended that I see Dr. Lester as soon as possible. I am hoping for the best as always but prepared for the worst.

Not a fun time.

An Important Date to Remember

As my treatment for my Osteomyelitis started back on April 2nd, forcing me to enter a world of no showering and no working out, it was a tad devastating to be honest. Then my Infectious Disease doctor, Dr. Richard Lester at Vancouver General Hospital, and his team agreed to allow me to start walking on the treadmill, just 15 minutes a day. Everything was going well until my PICC Line dressing kept coming off due to sweat and a rash forming under the tape of the dressing. So the nurses at Wound Care agreed that the working out had to stop until we were given the all clear, meaning when the PICC Line came out.

After two months of no shower, just a sponge bath, and also getting back into my workout routine. YAY!

Osteomyelitis is a tough battle as you never know wheen it will flare up again, but hopefully never, ever again!

Working Out In the Presence of Osteomyelitis

Working out in the presence of  any bone disorder should be confirmed by your attending doctor before pursuing advice of any blog writer alike myself who is simply sharing their personal experience.

Yes, weighing 378lbs, I could not stand being that weight anymore. As I have been limited in my workout routine to due my Osteomyelitis and an open wound on my lower left leg (shin area), but also using them as an excuse till last Monday as I decided to take control and watch what I eat and slowly walk my why up on the treadmill in the basement,

I started off with 12 minutes twice a day and now I am at 15 minutes twice a day working my way by to 25 minutes twice daily. Why twice a day you might ask? It is so that I do not stress my bad leg out.

I can do that as I have done this time before.

Go ME Go!

Promise to Myself

With the diagnosis of Osteomyelitis it is indeed a wake up call. Why, you might ask? With weighing roughly 375lbs, I know it is going to take time, but this weight needs to come off, slowly and steady. I don’t want to find myself starving myself or weighing myself numerous times a day like past behaviours. I will only weigh myself at my GP’s office once a month, and eat minimal carbohydrates and zero sugar where possible.

For exercise due to my bad leg, my Infectious Disease doctor has limited me to ten minutes twice a day of walking on the treadmill. Just walking on the flat surface, at a slow but steady pace. I do not want to cause anymore damage to my injured leg then what has already been done.

I am determined to do this right, I have said that before, but being 375lbs at 28 years old is life altering.


Letter About My Osteomyelitis to Dr. C. Leung

June 3rd, 2017

Re: Osteomyelitis

Dear Dr. C. Leung,

All this started the end of March, with the official diagnosis April 2nd, 2017, from Dr. Jan Hayjek. I expressed my concerns at the time about losing my leg, and he laughed it off as if it were a silly question, or something that was indeed not going to happen.

Here we are, going to enter my third IV treatment via PICC Line along with oral antibiotics as there has been little important. My leg is getting large, I am limited on what I can do in terms of physical activity due to my leg bone infection or the Osteomyelitis and actual leg wound, without causing more damage.

I do fear that this leg will not make it as I see professionals struggle to find the proper treatment to cure the infection raging in my leg. I know weighing 375lbs is not helping my situation, but also when I stress I binge eat. They go hand in hand.

I know I can only take it one day at a time, but it just seems so overwhelming right now.


Katiejane Morgan